.:: Memories of the past ::.

2011-03-24T18:59:00.002+08:00

once again, the drugs given by KTPH has amazed me. its miraculous how i feel better after eating one dose of their drugs and feel a whole lot better before i even have to take the next dose.

i went back to AnE yesterday(23rd Mar 2011)because the pain in my eye/head is still there. this time, the Doctor said that i have sinusitis, something like swollen eye but damn serious. i don't really know how to explain this situation. but i know its caused by virus infection. (readers may check up the term "sinusitis" on wikipedia to learn more about it)

so i'm now hoping that after i finish my course of drugs, i will be cured. lol. also, i have scheduled a medical appointment with the eye specialist tomorrow afternoon. hope i will be able to get a memo from him/her so that i can wear transition lens to camp :)

2011-03-20T00:24:00.002+08:00

yay!!

"the cut in your eye healed perfectly. so perfect that no wound was left behind."

this was told to me by the eye specialist at KTPH when i went for the appointment on friday afternoon. i'm feeling much better now. thanks to those who bothered to ask me how was I. really glad to know at least someone is still out there with me in their mind/heart.

anyway, all thats left now is the congestion in my eye, in other words, my eye is still swollen. hope the swell will reduce soon.

2011-03-17T00:27:00.002+08:00

i really really want to thank Dr. Corinne Lau from Khoo Teck Phuat Hospital. she gave me the right medicine for my injury. unlike a certain captain from somewhere that i can't mention. he said that it was nothing and just gave me normal eye drops when i had a 3mm cut in my right eye. anyway, i shall rest for now and blog more after my appointment with the eye specialist :)

2011-02-16T21:44:00.003+08:00

i wish i didn't have parents. all they do is make me cry. why bring me into this world if you are going to make me suffer from all the nonsense between you two?

i wanna move out and stay on my own. but i'm not financially stable to do so. but even so, i know that i will not completely let go because they are my parents.

at this moment, my heart is feeling very sour and tears are rolling down my cheeks as i type this post. how i wish i wouldn't wake up tomorrow morning. how i wish i wouldn't be affected by all their nonsense. how i wish that they will not be around when i open my eyes the next morning.

can someone cry for me?

2011-02-13T20:31:00.003+08:00

yet another week have passed...

felt very angry and pissed off due to some events that happened. i shall not elaborate as i'm trying to let it go. for those who want to know, you may do so by asking me.
went to de-stress by eating good food and buying stuff that i 've wanted for quite some time. it means that i'm actually spending money to de-stress :/
hope that the week to come will be a good one.

some personal feelings and thoughts...
i'm starting to be more fake than i already am. starting to not believe in anything / anyone. no one knows what i'm feeling. they assume from what they see of me and did not care to ask me whether i'm really feeling that way or not. one example would be, some of my friends ask me whether i went to people's house during chinese new year and i just told them no because i did not have friends. i was smiling when i said that and they thought i was really joking when i said that.
i know its not a good sign and i'm aware of my own emotions. but, i have tried very hard to curb my temper and control my emotion. i wonder when will the day come that i will breakdown and do something that cannot be undone.

i'm suffering in silence. and i know that there are people worse off than me.

who can help me???

2011-02-03T03:42:00.002+08:00

hey guys and girls, i've just changed the font color and size of my blog to cater to those of you having difficulty to read my blog. if you have any queries or suggestions, kindly post in the tagboard. thank you :)

2011-02-03T03:03:00.003+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year people!!!
Welcome to the year of the Bunnies!!

I'm currently blogging from my cousins house in tampines. Its already 3am in the morning and I myself am wondering why I'm not going to bed yet.
Its already the 21st century and my family and relatives broke off from the tradition of the children having to stay awake on chinese new year eve. LOL!!

anyway, some updates of the things happening in my working place (don't get the wrong idea, I'm talking about National Service :/ )
Exercise Phalanx 11 just finished and we were given 2 days off. I reserved one off day for next time and used up one already. the next upcoming event thats going to happen is the Logistic Audit Branch Inspection a.k.a LAB Inspection. Its basically an inspection by LAB on our stores.

next up, some updates on my life on a personal level.
Many things have been going on in my own family and my mother's side of the family (relatives) as well. It has been going on ever since i came into this world. I'm not exaggerating here. for those interested in the story, please come and ask me. that aside, i'm glad i had a peaceful evening today on CNY eve.
a few days ago, i got a hint from my mum asking me when i'm going to bring a girlfriend home. although she didn't say it out loud and direct, but i'm sure i got her meaning between the lines. I'm 22 this year. many would say that i'm still young. but i feel that i want to settle down earlier. the reason for it is hard for me to put in words. but i'll update soon on that too. for the girls out there, i'm not being desperate here. LOL!! i just have my reasons. a few of you may already know the reasons. for those who don't, if you'll just give me a chance, you will definitely be able to find out more.

alright people, i'm gonna knock out soon. had a bit too much of choya just now plus severe lack of sufficient and uninterrupted rest. haha.

good nite, "wan an", oyasumi nasai.

2011-01-23T04:25:00.005+08:00

i saw this somewhere but i cant rememberwhere. some text are edited like names and etc.

... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

ppl call me david. I have lived for 21 years and counting and I'm living through a lot of heartbroken feelings/memories and pain in my life.

everyday which i have spent, is making me lose my way and direction. The bruises i carry never seems to heal, my mind is dark and no one else seems to understand or even want to help. As always, i will be alone in this world, fighting my dark thoughts by myself.

i used to let people in, now i don't even bother to try, having been hurt so many times in the past. i don't trust in relationship anymore. But i REALLY do wanna trust someone. No matter if i see anyone or not, deep down, I'm waiting for someone to come & set me free and teach me where to find my way/direction, and i just want to be happy.

as this song is sung like this...
Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you... I am afraid

... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

i feel that this really is what my heart wants to say which i didnt say out all this while. hope to see someone come by someday to set me free............

2011-01-23T04:16:00.002+08:00

hello, i'm back for some blogging.

currently in mandai camp 1 slogging my days in NS as a supply assistant for general equipment A.K.A. storeman. i'm not complaining as i have enjoyed my block leave after BMT so i think its fair to work hard now :)

not thinking about the future recently as it seems quite impossible. but its not that i have given up on it. just putting that idea aside for now. also feeling very tired nowadays. hope for the best though.

since im working 8am to 5pm, i guess i'll be going back for some badminton after work. although i'll be damn tired, but at least i can release some stress there.

still feeling lonely even after being so busy everyday ;/

2011-01-01T17:15:00.003+08:00

its been 8 weeks since i enlisted for national service. so sorry to those who visited my blog for not updating.

quite a few things have happened ever since i enlisted. my emotions also went from up in the sky till down in the valley. a few holidays also passed, like hari raya haji, christmas, and new year which is today. i did enjoy my book out days with friends. and i also want to thank those who were with me when i was feeling down.

once again, i'm facing the same old question again. why i can help others but not myself? it's always the case ever since the day i've been helping others. sick and tired of myself, of others, of this world, of everything!! i agree to the saying that it's really not good to know too much. the more you know, the more dangerous you are. sigh.

no mood to continue blogging. sorry guys, and girls. till next time. jaa

2010-10-27T21:20:00.006+08:00

counting down to the long awaited NS enlistment... 14 more days...

why does most of the people that i know think that i'm being emotional when i'm not talking? i wonder... i admit, i don't really talk much. after all, i'm more of a listener than a talker. and i don't really talk for about 80% of the time unless people ask me questions. but, not talking doesn't mean i'm emotional, okay? :)

it's just that i happen to be a really good listener. i can listen to people talk non-stop for about 4 hrs without them even hearing me speak a word. actually, things happen for a reason. i used to be a chatterbox when i was younger. but there was an incident that made me to feel not like talking. well, although the incident was really an accident. but, it's really good as not many people open up their ears to listen to others these days.

HOWEVER, when i'm really emotional, i will say that i am. so don't worry about me, okay? i want to apologize to those of my friends who felt like they were talking to a wall when talking to me. :/

really wish to have a relationship now. not because of comparison, not because i just want to have one, but because i feel really empty. it really suck to feel empty. just like when i'm very hungry but there is no cookie in the cookie jar :(

lack of love is no good for the body and soul. don't misunderstand when i say body. but it really is not good as i always lack the energy and motivation to do stuff.

sigh. i'm not very good after all. i recently advised one of my friend to go get a girlfriend but i couldn't even get one myself. sadded :(

2010-10-12T07:13:00.004+08:00

it's been quite awhile since my last post. i have been enjoying my life lately as i'm left with a little less than a months time till i enlist for national service. Finally!!! the long awaited national service.

also have been quite emotional lately due to some events that occurred. and i thought that i would feel better after talking to celest that night. who knows that i would still feel the same after letting out. but i must say that i'm having difficulty unlocking some of the deeper things kept within. the things that i told her were some of those that were on the outside and were easily let out. sigh. i need time. but i don't have it.

i think i'm currently at a stage where i cannot move forward on my path towards my dream. without time and money, there's really nothing much that i can do. everything have to wait.

one this is for sure, and that is that i'm going to finally have my own room. everything inside the room will be mine. or i should say that everything inside my room is my thing, my own stuff :D

i sometimes wish that i'm not a singaporean, wish that i'm not staying in singapore. its far too stressful. too fast pace. i sometimes envy those friends from other countries. but, there's pros and cons. so all i can do is envy. singapore's standard of living is way too high. can't really stand it. in the past, a mcdonalds meal is less than $5. now, an average mcdonalds meal would easily cost up to $7 to $9 (non inclusive of mc value lunch). why isn't our pay increasing? sigh.

2010-09-25T06:02:00.006+08:00

its been such a long time since i cried while watching a show. i just watched a japanese movie 《为己而生》. it has japanese dialogue with chinese subtitles. and i really cried throughout the show.

the show is about a guy "hikaru" who sees himself as a girl. he didn't let the people around him know that he was a guy and no one could really tell as he was dressed as a girl. there are also a few others like him in the show,of which, only 1 of them "kasumi rin" went through the operation to become a real girl(physically). in the end, hikaru persuaded his family to allow him to pursue his own way of living, including going through with the operation to change his sex.

the reason i cried mainly is because i feel that he is courageous in a sense that he is able to go through the process of having others acknowledge his way of thinking, even though its tough.
i personally and honestly don't possess such courage to do so.

i would recommend those who are more emotionally attached to watch this show on PPS, although you may need some tissue paper, but i feel that its worth it.

personal rating for content: 3 / 5
personal rating for overall: 4 / 5 *** ***

《为己而生》剧情简介

生理和心理的性别在一出身就已经不同。这部日剧是描写1名生来具有男性肉体而内心却是女性的“女子大生”的辛苦经历。被医生诊断为性别障碍的主人公决定了要做变性手术，可是主人公的父亲因打算让儿子继承家业而大为反对。另外，在主人公的周围发生的一连串的事件和家族内亲人意见的不合，使家庭陷入了大混乱之中。
最终，主人公决定要“为己而生”的愿望是否会实现呢？这是描述了至今为止受到偏见和差别的性别障碍人们的写实派戏剧。

2010-09-17T15:59:00.003+08:00

its halfway through september already. recently busy with helping my cousin to set up her business. also trying to help her create her portfolio as she is a photographer.

a little less than 2 months time left till i enlist for national service. although i don't feel any excitement about going in, but i still can't wait for it because it's still better than having nothing to do at all.

having mood swings more often lately. reason unknown. but am having trouble communicating with others because of it.

some thoughts to share...
i feel that after so long, i'm still locked up in my own world. i always hear my friends telling me not to think too much. but sometimes, i can't really control what i think about. and, how much is too much?

i keep convincing myself that maybe i experienced too much for my age already. but others say otherwise. and i think that's when i feel that i have trouble communicating with others. maybe it's because i can't adapt to the conversation level. or maybe it's because i'm just not willing to. i don't know. but because of this, i am not willing to go out, or go to events.

i always live in a state of confusion. and whenever i'm in a clear state of mind, i tend to think about the negatives. it's a good thing when you are going to do business or planning. but it's not good to ALWAYS think about the negatives only, right? it's also something i can't control.

i wish that there was an external force to bring me out. wish someone could unlock my world. wish that someone would know me, try to understand me. i wish that friends would not be friends who only contact when needed but also contact when not needed. i guess that saying that it's human nature doesn't help much, but it really is.

help me, anyone?

2010-08-09T01:10:00.009+08:00

its national day already. and i'm working on the night of national day. have been slogging my days at work, and before i knew it, its already the month of august. i should be quitting my job at around the end of august or mid september, if it all goes well.

i always have quite abit of free time during work, so many a time thoughts will run through my mind. even though i have already thought about it before, but im still thinking about it again. OMG!! what am i thinking???

a lot of things i want to do, to accomplish, but yet undone, unable to materialize them yet. what should i do??

if possible, i just want to bury myself in my own world, never ever will i open up to anyone. but can i really do that?? reality is always cruel. :(

or maybe i can just bury myself in music? though i have been doing that. *sigh* the things that revolve around me: music, badminton, work, sleep, food. nothing else.

suddenly remembered something that bernice said when i commented about her latest self-composed music, "why i always like slow/emo songs?" haha. well, my answer would be, if you were in my shoes, you wouldn't be happy about it. not because that the shoe size is too big, but rather the condition/situation thats the problem.

*sigh again* was just chatting with my cousin on msn and i asked her, "whats the definition of a close friend. her answer was, "close friends are ppl who will support u no matter wat..... ppl who can talk abt anything under the sun.... ppl who u can share ur opinion on..... ppl who u can talk more indepth topics like life etc..." but my answer is much more simpler but yet the opposite. my answer is, "close friends are those that truly understands you." but then, another question pops up. whats the difference between close friends and best friends?

no wonder i keep hearing my friends telling me not to think too much.

back to the topic with bernice, i remember u saying that you don't know/understand me very well. well, who does? im a rather emotional guy, yet logical in a sense. sometimes when i hear a happy song, i will cry, and sometimes when i hear a sad song, it may not be sad to me. haha. weird right?

i feel that being emotional is not such a bad thing. although my friends will keep asking me to not be emotional.

a phrase came to my mind. "its all about levels" haha. guess who i heard it from? russell peters. and its true to a certain extent. all this while, im seeking someone who understands me. but, easier said than done. i have many friends. but none who understands me. i know some friends will say they understand me after i say that no one understands me. but, as i have said. its all about levels.

think about it. do you have someone who truly understands you?

2010-08-09T00:56:00.004+08:00

more recounts ...

*** ***
24 july 2010 - saturday 3.07pm

i just came home from eating with my cousin at lot 1, choa chu kang. We had lunch at pastamania and had dessert at mof-japanese sweets.

then, when i was at the carpark of my block, i saw the back of a pretty girl walking towards the lift to my block. At that time, i was already thinking which floor she stayed at. We then went into the lift together and i chance upon the face of a cute, pretty girl. She should be in her teens, probably studying in a polytechnic becausw i saw books in her bag. And judging from her looks and clothing, yes, she must be studying at some polytechnic.

she then pressed the button to the fifth floor when i was still admiring her looks. So, embarrassedly, i pressed the button to the eighth floor. we then went our own way home.

Wonder if i'll ever meet her again.........

2010-07-18T19:15:00.002+08:00

been 15 days since my last post. shall give a personal recount for some of the events that happened in the last 15 days..

*** ***13 july 2010 - tuesday 9.30pm

i went to a petrol station near my house to pump petrol for my motorcycle. When i was about to leave after paying for my petrol, i saw a white butterfly.

It had wings that were pure white in color. it seemed so beautiful and graceful. Then i realized that i am afraid of butterflies, so i jumped back a step.

Everyone was wondering why the butterfly was able to fly in, because the cashier counter was in a air conditioned environment. But at the point of time, i noticed that it wasn't a normal butterfly. I could feel its presence as though something was inside the butterfly (you know what). But it seems weird because it looked like the size of a normal butterfly.

At the same time, i remembered an anime called "bleach" where there were "hell butterflies" that were black in color and that normal humans were not able to see them.

Sounds cool and mysterious, right?

*** ***14 july 2010 - wednesday 1.50am

not very long ago, i contacted one of my friends, bernice. Because not very long ago before i contacted her, i saw her self-composition video on facebook and youtube. She is a pianist.

So i asked her whether she would like to make some music together with her, and she agreed. Then, i realized that she is still schooling and i'm still working. So the only time we are available is during september to october.

The music she composes is almost perfect. And i'm guilty to say that i'm still miles away from her, in terms of skill. *sigh* wonder how we can make music together.

But i also realized another thing, which is my stamina dropped drastically. An example is that in the past, i could blow and hold a single note for around 16 seconds. But i can't do it now. I'm already breathless when i blow and hold a note for 10 seconds. Guess i'll have to really train up my stamina soon.

really can't wait to hear the music made by us.

*** ***15 july 2010 - thursday 1.20am

listening to the whole album of 不能说的.秘密 Original soundtrack once again. Its been quite awhile since i heard any of the songs from the album.

The reason im hearing it again is because im trying to get some 灵感 to compose a song. *sigh* hard to compose songs these days because all i've been doing is work and work and work some more.

Anyone can give me suggestions on how to compose songs for piano and chinese flute?? the kind of song that i would like to compose would be sentimental, slow to moderate tempo and that it should sound soothing to the ears.

Haha. I know its possible to do so. Only that i has to do more research. My friend suggested that i go to the esplanade library to look up some scores. But, its difficult for me to combine chinese flute and piano music together. The sound, taste, flavor, everything sounds weird. Maybe it's just me.

Hope that i am able to compose a song like this someday.

*** ***yea.. the recounts above are all written when i was at work. so some of it are my thoughts. feeling lonely and empty recently. who is able to share my feelings? who is able to understand me??

2010-07-05T02:36:00.001+08:00

Something to laugh...

We'll begin with a box, and the plural is boxes,

But the plural of ox becomes oxen, not oxes.

One fowl is a goose, but two are called geese,

Yet the plural of moose should never be meese.

You may find a lone mouse or a nest full of mice,

Yet the plural of house is houses, not hice.

If the plural of man is always called men,

Then shouldn't the plural of pan be called pen?

If I speak of my foot and show you my feet,

And I give you a boot, would a pair be called beet?

If one is a tooth and a whole set are teeth,

Why shouldn't the plural of booth be called beeth?

Then one may be that, and three would be those,

Yet hat in the plural would never be hose,

And the plural of cat is cats, not cose.

We speak of a brother and also of brethren,

But though we say mother, we never say methren.

Then the masculine pronouns are he, his and him,

But imagine the feminine: she, shis and shim!

Let’s face it – English is a crazy language.

There is no egg in eggplant nor ham in hamburger;

Neither apple nor pine in pineapple.

English muffins weren't invented in England.

We take English for granted; but if we explore its paradoxes,

We'll find that quicksand can work slowly, boxing rings are square,

And a guinea-pig is neither from Guinea nor is it a pig.

And why is it that writers write but fingers don't fing,

Grocers don't groce and hammers don't ham?

Doesn't it seem crazy that you can make amends but not one amend.

If you have a bunch of odds and ends,

And get rid of all but one of them, what do you call it?

If teachers taught, why didn't preachers praught?

If a vegetarian eats vegetables, what does a humanitarian eat?

Sometimes I think all the folks who grew up speaking English

Should be committed to an asylum for the verbally insane.

In what other language do people recite at a play and play at a recital?

We ship by truck but send cargo by ship.

We have noses that run and feet that smell.

We park in a driveway and drive in a parkway.

And how can a slim chance and a fat chance be the same

While a wise man and a wise guy are opposites?

You have to marvel at the unique lunacy of a language

In which your house can burn up as it burns down,

In which you fill in a form by filling it out,

And in which an alarm goes off by going on.

And, in closing, if Father is Pop, how come Mother’s not Mop?

2010-06-20T15:58:00.004+08:00

another week has passed since I've started work. nothing much interesting to blog about. everyday was just sleep-wake up-work to me. and the cycle goes on. although nothing much happened through the week, but many things came to my mind. below is a part of my thoughts while i was on a bus yesterday heading towards chinatown to meet my cousin.

(start of thoughts)

"Should I pursue my dreams, or should I pursue a normal life instead? This question kept repeating itself while I was on a bus heading to Chinatown today.

Ever since I started working again on the 10th of June, I feel that I have returned to the workforce. And because I have not worked in quite some time, I can really feel the strain on my health, be it physically, or mentally. Then, questions like "why am I working? What am I working for?" will pop up in my mind. Am I working for the experience? Am I working for the money?? Or am I working, simply just to past time???

My answer was that I am working for the money, after considering my current situation/status. So, there goes my health, down the drain, into the sea :X

As I was on the bus, I saw some of my friends. I called out to them and chatted for awhile before they alighted at their stop. After they left, I saw one of my female friend, holding hands with her boyfriend. As I had chatted with them earlier, I realized that she was leading a simple/normal life like every kid would. Of course, I’m not saying that my life is not simple or normal. But it’s just that she is contented with the way everything is in the current lifestyle.

That’s when the question pops up in my mind. Should I continue to strive towards my dreams/goals? Or should I just pursue a simple lifestyle like my friend by just finish studying, going ns, get a full time job, settle down and get married and enjoy the latter half of my life??

Well, if anyone was given a choice, I think they would say "can I have both?" and I would say the same thing too.

And the obvious answer would be, no! Then I was considering what I would need in order to pursue my dreams.

My dream is to be a boss of a company. But that’s too vague, isn't it? I want to open a studio, cafe and form a band, cut an album. Is that too much to ask for? Maybe that is, because not many people can materialize those dreams, maybe not even one of them in their lifetime, not even saying that I want to accomplish all of them.

So in order to pursue my dreams, I would need a rather large amount of capital, which is exactly why I’m working right now. But somehow, I feel that it’s rather lonely when I think back. People of my age right now are in relationships, going shopping, enjoying life, while I’m thinking of ways to earn more money to do what I want to in the future.

What should I do?"

(end of thoughts)

2010-06-14T08:43:00.003+08:00

this weekend pass by really quick for me. because i was running here and there, buying stuff for people and not myself :(

after work ended on saturday morning, i went home to sleep, woke up in the evening and rushed down to suntec to get PC show flyers for my bro coz he's buying a laptop. didn't sleep on saturday night as my body already adapted to the working hours, which was not sleeping from 10pm till 8am.

went down to suntec again on sunday to officially buy my bro's laptop. my cousin went down with me to get her destop *envious* after that, went down to my aunt's house to provide technical consultation to her. did not sleep on sunday night either.

and finally, im tired now. so, good night :D

2010-06-11T17:12:00.004+08:00

first day at work was like WAH! to me. at first i thought it would be damn tiring. but in the end, i got more time to rest there. okok, i'll describe.

the place i'm working at is Mentor Media, and working as a store assistant. basically, my job is to tie/wrap HP products (printers, monitors, CPUs, etc..) that were on wooden pellets (platforms). sounds tiring right? but they come in batches, so whenever i'm done with my work, i can take the time to rest/slack till the next batch comes.

so, imagine 1 batch of 7 pellets, with 8 to 12 other people working with me as a team. we can finish the job in about half an hour, and the next batch comes around half an hour later!!

so my time line was like, 10.30pm start work, i learn the basics till 12am. then had break till 1am. work till 2am, and break till 3am, work till 3.30am, break till 3.55am. work till 4.40am, break till 5am, work till 5.35am, break till 6.15am. work till 6.45am, break till 7.05am, work till 7.20am and break till 8am and end of work!! WTF right!?

so basically, the work here is like u "chiong" for short term then can break, and the logic is "the faster u finish the job, the more time u have to rest" and its like, i work 10 hours for $50 a night. but around half the time there is for me to rest. but from what i heard from the full time people there, last night was one of the average nights. if really more stocks came in, then won't get to rest so much. so fun and cool. wonder whether tonight will be another night for slacking :D for those who sleep late can chat with me on sms, kay?

2010-06-05T16:36:00.003+08:00

my body is so torn up. have injuries from my shoulder all the way down to my feet. main injured parts are my shoulder, ankle and heel. haiz. feel so fragile. well, life is fragile anyway.

went with my friend to arcade that day. decided to buy a new tapz card and e-amusement card after so long. i used to have it. but i lost it quite some time ago. wonder what made me decide to buy them again...

i received my enlistment letter for national service yesterday. going in to pulau tekong for 9 week modified basic military training on 10th november. sucks like hell because its exactly 1 week before my birthday. what to do..

2010-05-30T12:49:00.002+08:00

there's always an end to everything. although sad, but it's the end. haha. chim right? my graduation ended, NP Open 2010/2011 ended.

currently still waiting for my enlistment letter to arrive in my mailbox. still playing badminton almost everyday. trying to get a life but still couldn't get one :X

2010-05-23T21:37:00.002+08:00

*piak!!!* and thats how my badminton racket string broke today while playing singles with Wei Liang D: had pepper lunch for lunch and dessert and 记得吃 :D

2010-05-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

had dinner st breeks cafe today. ordered beef lasagne and found it super salty after 2 mouthfuls :(

2010-05-18T15:52:00.005+08:00

yesterday had badminton session with juniors back in school. not really happy with some stuff. but yet i dun wanna mention names here in my blog too. what to do..? i do want to say it out. because i think that many people have similar problems :(

well, i guess i'll say it out because i feel reallly unhappy about this. yesterday, at the beginning of the session, i stroked with shawn and haixin. for some reason, shawn keep passing the shuttle to me and hai xin. i was thinking "why don't you just serve instead of passing it to me and haixin?" i wasn't so angry yet then. but when shawn asked a stupid question, it really pulled the trigger. shawn aske me "whats the best racket?" and i told him straight to the face, saying "its not the problem with the racket. its the problem with you." den he kept quiet all the way till he left.

so shawn left and i decided to train haixin. haixin always told me that he wanted to train, and he aimed to beat me one day. but i felt that he didn't meant any of it, not till yesterday. i was training him with the dropping technique. and he was like not putting in any effort.

so, my point is, if you always say that you want to have training, and now that you have it, you don't appreciate it or don't put in any effort, then, WHATS THE POINT OF CALLING ME DOWN???
JUST TO PLAY!?!?!?!?!?!?

haiz.. had dinner with jet, wenqi and 1 other guy that i forgot his name(sorry!) jet was saying that i dun have the "seh" when i teach/train others. well, i admit that i truely don't. coz i believe that you will listen to me if you are really interested. and if you are not, no matter how hard i try to teach you, you will still be not interested. sad-ed. ate mutton soup for dinner and went home.

2010-05-16T21:52:00.002+08:00

woohoo!!! just changed blog skin. typed out the html from scratch. what a hard work. haha. spent around 5 hours doing it. was actually slacking here and there while typing :P

had badminton training yesterday. or was it more of a free-play session? haha. there are still too many members after 3 weeks. with only 5 courts available, how can there be training? LOL!! had lunch at alumni and went home there after. met my cousin in the night at chinatown, ate quarter pounder meal for dinner and discussed some frustrating matters of the family.

today, went to endeavour primary school to play badminton with nelson, shawn, jinghui, vanessa, noel, hao yi, weiliang and his juniors. had quite a fun session of badminton. played and lost singles to weiliang D: my arm's condition didn't get better nor did it get any worse. had lunch with the few of them at xin wang hong kong cafe, sun plaza.

will be going for another session of badminton tomorrow at NP :D

2010-05-14T14:21:00.003+08:00

today is friday. supposed to have a game of badminton today and the next 2 days. but i have already decided not to play today. all i can say is that pursuing happiness has its consequences

after playing 2 games with serena during badminton camp, i felt pretty happy(see earlier post for details). but due to playing too seriously, my arm is currently suffering damages from the impact. i did a damage assessment on my arm and the condition im currently in is that i can't play like i normally did. hard to describe in words. but i can show you if you asked me.

nevertheless, i did not regret for playing so seriously as its a once in a million chance to be able to get the feeling of playing real badminton. but i guess its a different kind of feeling for each and every badminton players out there.

so, instead of playing badminton today, my dear cousin has kindly invited me to a session of pool(the kind with balls?). haha. apparently, she wants to win me badly. but i will let her win though. coz she really tried hard to win me at every attempt. so i thought that letting her win once in awhile will be a great encouragement :D should be having dinner at "ishikawa". Omg! i miss "nippon yatai mura II" from city square,malaysia. T,T

2010-05-13T20:35:00.005+08:00

been quite awhile since i last blogged. well, many things happened lately. had quite an enjoyable time with some of my friends. had times when i got very frustrated. but overall, didn't really accomplish anything ever since school ended for me.

still remembered that i rented van on the 8th of may. long awaited, but finally here. whats the special occasion? well, nothing special, just that badminton camp and grace's bday celebration just so happen to fall on the same day.. so i decided to rent. so i drove here and there for 3 days. really hope to be able to drive soon.

still remember that jet pulled/threw grace down into the pool for like 5 times during the party!! wahaha!! like so fun :D

made some new friends during the camp too. most memorable event should be playing singles with serena. she made me remember the feeling of playing REAL badminton. oh ya!! not forgetting fetching my fellow junior comms out to buy food D: haha. and thats about it for that weekend.

as for my normal life, im like playing badminton almost everyday. well, seems pretty abnormal to me. wonder whether i should go work... i should!! but, wanna enjoy somemore :P but my hand/arm is currently injured. i think its due to playing too much. i know i have to let it rest. but, i am going for games tomorrow, training on sat, and games on sunday too. omg!! hope i survive??

ohoh!! just remembered an interesting event. i cant remember when was it, but there was this 1 day, when i was practicing singing with jet in our clubhouse. it was around 5pm plus at that moment. then i popped the question. DUN GET ME WRONG!! i asked jet whether he wanted to go watch iron man 2 with me or not. then he hesitated for quite awhile. in the end, i finally got him to come along with me to lot 1 to catch the movie. it was around 6pm plus when we traveled to lot 1. when we reached, jet ask me to go buy tickets first while he went to buy water. haha.. when he came to find me after buying his drinks, he passed me 10 dollars for the tickets. then i told him we were watching this movie for free. O.O YES!! FREE!! 2 tickets cost 14 dollars. i handed the guy 15 dollars, so buy right, he is suppose to return me 1 dollar. but ended up he returned me 16 dollars. haha. so at the end of the day, we watched a free movie and i get my parking fee too.. haha!! jet told me he made the right choice by accompanying me to watch the movie. LOL!!
end of topic :D

met some old friends now and then. did some catching up with them and had high tea with some of them too. OMG!! love the xiao long bao from crystal jade and the other place i couldn't remember. haha. yea. but one of the few common questions that i frequently encounter is "are you attached?" well, thats one of the questions that i always reluctantly answer. im still single and available for the last 4 years? haiz. and my friends will always say "oh" when they heard my reply. haha. i guess god didn't make my other half? my friends will always tell me that being single is good. but i suppose they dunno how lonely it can be eh? haha. there is 2 sides to everything i suppose. i always think that life is not complete without your other half. and when 2 people get together, thats when you will feel that you have live life to its fullest :D

the next chapter of my life will probably be National Service. hope to go in quickly and get out quickly too. dun get me wrong, im not afraid of it. just that i do not want to waste my time in NS so that i can pursue my dream. haha. i will be taking another diploma in audio-visual technology. and i suppose that answered those who have been asking me whether i will be going to uni.

my dream is to be able to open up a recording studio in singapore, regardless of location. well, it seems pretty easy but when you really break it down, haha, you will see more of my hair becoming white. of course, i still wish to form my own band/singing group. then can cut my own album :D

2010-04-07T02:13:00.002+08:00

been about a month since i last blogged. *sigh* i think because school life ended so i cease to blog too. :P

anyway, nothing much happening lately. not many programs. not many nice places to go. but mainly is because every is busily working their asses off.

haiz. no mood to blog much also..

2010-03-14T12:00:00.002+08:00

already halfway into the month of March and i've yet to update my blog T,T

exams are over, school has ended for me and holidays are here. couldn't find a job to suit my schedule due to the many commitments that i have. for example, playing badminton, watching videos/movies. HAHA. not really an important commitment eh.

just came back from badminton camp recently. had quite a few exciting matches during the overnight badminton period. had a lot of fun during pillow fight. keke. poor Yanting and Vivien XD

went to geylang yesterday with Jet, TO EAT!! haha. ate claypot chicken rice, sambal kang kong, tao huay, you tiao, bubble tea. haha. after eating, we went to Halo Bar at Ngee Ann Alumni for a drink, and of course, to sing K :DD haha. went home at around 3am :X

2010-02-20T15:56:00.002+08:00

haiz. i sometimes wonder whether its really pure misfortune or is it a blessing in disguise to be sick during exams. well, being sick is no fun, especially when i have cough, flu and fever together. but through past experience, when i am sick during exam, i somehow will pass that paper even though i didn't really do well for it. i just hope that i can make it through my last paper next tuesday.

2010-02-19T07:37:00.001+08:00

counting down... 1 hour and 23 mins more to start of 1st paper for exam. 2nd and last paper on next tuesday, 23rd feb. end of poly life after that. :X

2010-02-10T19:12:00.002+08:00

A quote from a friend which i find it true, especially the last sentence . . .

We spend half our life sleeping, but we spend our whole life waiting. Waiting in lines, waiting for times, waiting to be old enough, waiting for a call.

We’re always waiting. We just don't always realize it.

Waiting for someone to say something, waiting for them to notice you.

Constantly waiting for that one person, and they have no idea you’re waiting for them.

2010-02-09T13:34:00.003+08:00

every one holds a key to the secrets that lies within. its only up to oneself to unlock them.

if the one holding the key doesn't want to share its content, then no one is capable of doing anything more.

if one is willing to share, others will have to try to understand.

2010-02-09T11:22:00.004+08:00

i just watched finish a hongkong serial drama 《桌球天王》 recently and had some 感触.

i felt that for my case, because i play many kinds of sports, so i feel that sports damages the body. people often say that by doing sports, you are healthy and fit. but we seldom think of the after effects. i mean, who would? whats more its said to have good effects like being healthy.

i don't know about others. maybe it's my own problem. but for me, after playing badminton for so long, i gradually felt the after effects already. i remember there was a saying, "with great power comes great responsibility".

im not trying to brag here, but being quite a good badminton player as i am, my hand/arm often trembles after i execute a smash/punch of more than 50% of my power. its just a gauge. but i really felt that it may worsen after many more years of playing.

my point here is that we should appreciate what we can do now, like being good at something. because we don't know if we are able to get the same chance again. :D

2010-02-05T00:03:00.003+08:00

if i can choose again, i would still make the same decision for i would rather endure everything alone than allow anyone connected to me to be hurt. That's the kind of person i am. and that's the kind of person i would remain for the rest of my life.

waiting is not difficult, but whether you are worth waiting. with all my heart, i wish you happiness...

2010-02-04T21:14:00.000+08:00

mongs,

haiz. i don't think it will appear soon. because if it does really appear, it should have appeared 4 to 5 years ago. anyway, i have linked you :X

xiiao vid

2010-02-04T14:10:00.003+08:00

kar voon,

partially because of talking to you bah. i did feel a little better right after pouring everything out bah. but the next day jiu back to emo feeling liao :X

xiiao vid

mongs,

acutally hor, 雨过天晴 like never appear in my dictionary before. so i don't know when it will come :X

xiiao vid

... ...

Something funny happened today. i almost CREATE an accident on the road today. haha.

the story goes like this.

i was on my way to school today. the road i was on had 3 lanes. i was riding on the left lane and there were cars on the center and right lane.

then a lizard suddenly crawled on to my hand. i didn't know where it came out from lo!!
then, my hand just reacted by itself and flicked the lizard on to the car in the center lane.

then the car swerved into the right lane and almost crashed in to the cars on the right lane.

scary wor O.O

2010-02-03T01:40:00.002+08:00

if my heart has a million pages, then the secrets that is kept within is overflowing by the minute. the secrets that i know may be 10 times the number of pages in my heart.

who in the world understands me? or is it the secrets within that are binding me from speaking?

who can i trust? or is there anyone that allows me to put my trust in them?

my friends always ask me not to think too much. but then, its not something i can control so easily. talking is always easier than doing. but thinking is also easier than doing. so to stop thinking so much is not an easy feat.

haiz. wonder whether my brain or heart will explode some day... ... ...

2010-01-31T19:18:00.002+08:00

kar voon,

was hoping to find someone so that i can pour out everything kept inside my heart. but its alright because i know that 勉强是没有幸福的.

xiiao vid

... ...

it's 7.22pm now and i'm still slacking in school with jet. actually, I'M DOING HIS WORK FOR HIM NOW!!! haha... doing a webpage for him using dreamweaver. haiz..

Jia You! Jia You! Jia You!!!

2010-01-31T15:06:00.002+08:00

心声...

心痛, 但已没感觉因为麻木了.
想哭, 但哭不出因为泪干了.

2010-01-31T14:59:00.002+08:00

Yay!! two weeks more till chinese new year. having my end of semester exams in the week after chinese new year and I'm done with my current diploma. a little sad as it marks the end of my poly life.

for the next two weeks, i only have lessons on wednesday and thursday. but i'll probably come to school every day to complete uncompleted assignments. haa.

hope to be able to find a job soon too :X

2010-01-27T08:53:00.002+08:00

Have been listening to music extensively these few days after i got back my laptop from the service center :D

well, having SoE exhibition tomorrow and the dress code is formal. sad-ed.

nothing interesting happening lately. everything has been smooth sailing. of course i don't mean that i like to be in weird situations everyday, do i? XD nevertheless, a smooth sailing life is a bored life to me. i need something to do besides watching shows and listening to music every day. and don't misunderstand me. i want something to do, but not assignments. haha.

alright. i got to go. will upload some photos on my other blog soon :D

2010-01-22T23:15:00.002+08:00

YAY!!! finally got back my laptop today. me is so happy today. don't think i can sleep today le. haha. its been 10 days since i touched my own laptop. wahaha. but the sad thing is that i have to re-install all my programs.

putting that aside, i went to city square, malaysia AGAIN today afternoon with one of my other friends, bernard. my objective was to buy a shirt, pants and shoes suitable for next week's "School Of Engineering Exhibition". and of course, i did buy it. haha. also bought another shirt for CNY, although its black in color. but i personally quite like the design. wahaha.

not forgetting that we went to Nihon Yatai Muratwo for some jap food. as usual, i called my macha shake :D Bernard called a chocolate shake. for the food, we shared 2 side dishes instead of having main course, namely okonomi yaki and pork sumiyaki. its hard to describe to you what it was. go to my picture blog for more info ok? haha.

once again, link to my photo blog is in my "LINKS" tab XD

well, during the 10 days that i didn't have my laptop, i thought about some things. i thought about things that i've never thought of, things that i've thought of but didn't want to face it, and things that concern others. feels like i thought about a lot of things right? haa! I DID! the point is, i didn't realize what i was thinking about the whole time at the end of the day. if felt like i was up in the clouds for awhile and back on the ground the next moment.

you may think that you might be able to see things more clearly if you go higher, but it actually misleads you instead.

Haiz~ hope to gain enlightenment soon. . .

2010-01-17T01:05:00.001+08:00

hiya! forgot to mention that i will update photos on my other blog.

the link to my other blog is at the "links" page :D

2010-01-17T00:45:00.003+08:00

phew! finally back home after a long day. started my day today with badminton training. actually i'm suppose to let the new comms handle it. but my hands felt a little itchy for badminton today, so sorry guys.. and girls :P haiz. for some reason, i ended up coaching 7 girls today. well, good in a way because i communicate better with girls than guys? LOL!!

had KFC for lunch after training and went home soon after to rest up a little before joining some friends for dinner. i heard it was suppose to be committee outing and i think it still is. haha.

"flew" down to bugis for dinner as i was already quite late. had steamboat at some restaurant (can't really remember what the restaurant was called). having no program after dinner, we all left bugis for home. yay!! home sweet home~ :D

...

i wonder how many days has it been since i sent my laptop for service. i think it was 5 days!! :( felt abit sad because i feel as though something important has been taken away from my life!! what to do since i wanted to sent it for service. so i'm bored for these few days. hope i'm able to get beck my laptop my next monday, which is the day after or tml since its already past midnight :P

i have been thinking about something lately. i still think about it although i already know the answer. the question is, "is it alright if you get rejected and immediately search for a next target?" some of my friends have also been asking me this question lately, as though they also already know the answer but just wants someone to tell it straight to their face. haiz.

have the feeling of escaping from reality.

2010-01-13T10:31:00.002+08:00

i'm currently not attending lessons as i'm waiting for the fujitsu on-site service guy to come and take a look at my laptop.

as i'm waiting, 2 christians came and talked to me about god. although i rejected them politely that i don't believe in religion, they insisted to take up a fraction of my time to talk to me about it.

i didn't really listened to them during the conversation. all i knew was that they seem to be trying to convince others to believe in god.

then, a question came into my thoughts. why do people need religion?

i've been thinking about an answer even after that have left. but the only reason that i can think of is that, people needs a morale support. because they don't believe in their own strength, or that they lack perseverance, so they give up easily and wants someone to point out the right path they should take.

its the same for other religion. buddhist who also believe in their own god, goes to the temple to pray, etc...

i actually wanted to ask the 2 christians who talked to me but they have already left my sight.

what do you all think?

2010-01-13T10:11:00.000+08:00

OMG!!! oil price rose AGAIN from 1.717 to 1.755 for 1 litre (fuelsave 95 @ shell gas station) >,<

2010-01-11T20:58:00.002+08:00

yay!! got back my camera today :D can start to take photos again. haha.

went to open a savings account at OCBC just for the sake of saving. and for that cause, i did not apply for a card. so i have to use the book to deposit cash, making it even more troublesome for me to withdraw cash :X

2010-01-10T22:56:00.002+08:00

today marks the end of the first week after term break. lots of projects to do and lots of deadlines to meet. sent my digital camera to the service center this week and will send my laptop in the following week. wonder whats wrong with my electronics lately...

went in to malaysia today to get my bike fixed up too. changed a new front tire, a new pair of mirrors and new accessories. also did some minor maintenance and changed engine oil all for around 200 ringgit.reasonably cheap if you ask me :D

wonder whether i'll be able to survive the following week... :X

2010-01-08T22:58:00.002+08:00

我不相信有永远。但只要你在我身边的一天，我一定会爱着你的。

2010-01-08T15:25:00.002+08:00

~joke of the day~

2 of my project mates were quarreling in my project room when i suddenly heard something damn funny.

jia guang: 你这个笨蛋!
eddie: i not ben tan! i'm eddie tan!

LOL!! get the joke?

笨蛋 = ben tan

hahaha... enjoy~

2010-01-04T00:19:00.001+08:00

*yawn* going to school in 7 hours time. better get some sleep first >,<

2010-01-02T00:35:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to all January babies!!! :D

2010-01-01T11:27:00.002+08:00

OMG!!! oil price rose from 1.679 to 1.717 for 1 litre (fuelsave 95 @ shell gas station) >,<

2009-12-30T23:11:00.003+08:00

spent 3 hours today from 1pm to 4pm at CMPB(Central Manpower Base) for NS medical checkup. To my surprise, it wasn't that scary as before. More of a enjoyable experience except for the mental test done on the computer. felt nauseous after the test lo >,<

feeling a little bored at the moment. well, its always the case where i feel bored during the holidays and feel tired during schooling days. im sure many others out there are feeling the same :X

2009-12-29T21:58:00.003+08:00

argg. have to sleep early today. having NS medical checkup tomorrow noon. really dread having to take blood sample because i absolutely hate those needles >,<

*sigh* recently keep on watching shows, inclusive of serial dramas, movies, animes, etc... how i wish i can keep on watching shows for the rest of my life :D

of course, i know that i can't take watching shows as my career. sad-ed. i just don't like studying. how i wish i can just get a job and stay in that job for the next 20 to 30 years.

but at the moment, i think i'll live life as it is. although not quite contented, but i don't have a choice. i believe most people of my age are thinking the same.

2009-12-27T22:21:00.002+08:00

Went to City Square(CS), Malaysia today, AGAIN with one of my friends. had been going to m'sia recently for shopping and for the food. it had a different style from that of our local food. haha. and i guess im beginning to like going there.

Its also a great place to shop for presents, especially for girls. i bet that any girl who goes to City Square can't resist the temptation of wanting to buy something there. of course, it only applies to s'pore girls. LOL XD

and so i went CS today with my friend, wenbin. it was actually my fault(partially) that he wanted to go, because i had been telling him how good the stuff in CS was as though i'm the salesperson for CS, especially the food. haha

he bought a pair of jeans and three tees. definitely not my type of tees, but it seems that he liked it. we ate our lunch at Nippon Yatai Mura 2, a.k.a. malaysia's version of Nihon Mura in singapore. but for some reason, i would prefer to compare it with Ajisen instead. haha. as mentioned earlier, the food in CS had a different style. hard to describe how the food taste like. all i can say is, you really have to try it yourself to understand. haha. will try to take photos, thats if im every going there soon. haha.

we were done by about 4pm decided that we should call it a day.

but my day didn't end with just that. i went down to bedok at around 7pm, sending christmas presents to my "gan-mei" a.k.a. god-sister in english. though i don't really like calling them gan-mei or god-sister. haha. i like to call them xiao-mei instead. because they are younger than me.

so i met up with 2 of my xiao-mei, joan and xin ru. didn't see them for quite awhile. yea, so i passed them their presents. at first when we just met, we just stared at each other. i believe its due to them not seeing me for so long. but for my case, i was quite tired after the trip to malaysia. ahha.

but we gradually start to talk, because it was getting really awkward just staring at each other XD well, my comments after seeing them after so long is ... ... ... its amazing to see how much they have grown after not seeing them for so long.

i left bedok at around 7.45pm and traveled all the way back to bukit gombak to meet up with one of my other sisters, jo-lin. of course, i pass her a present too :D yea. hope i can graduate soon and have time to meet up with all my dear friends and "siblings". LOL

missed everyone that is significant in my life <3

once again, i was thinking of "her" the whole day.

2009-12-27T02:22:00.004+08:00

Firstly, allow me to apologize for not blogging so long and i shall not give any reasons for not blogging >,<

Secondly, i wish all who visits my blog, a merry merry xmas, although i'm blogging two and a half hours after boxing day >,<

today's program is very packed for me. woke up at around 9am today. was suppose to meet jowell to play badminton. but in the end, i decided to 赖床 and i 赖 until 11am before going to exercise :P

i ended playing badminton early at around 5pm due to fatigue, ate a cup noodle and went down to steph's house :D

Slacked at steph's house from 6pm till 11.30pm. can you believe it? O.o haha. was basically sitting around and catching up will secondary school mates. haven't seen them in quite a while.

ate McSpicy meal for dinner/supper :D wahaha.

although didn't have that many events, but still feeling quite tired but physically and mentally. felt quite nostalgic seeing all my old friend. lol

to be honest, during the whole day, i have been thinking of her, the person i like. i shall not give names to prevent others from talking about it. also to save some face and not to create any trouble.

i feel like i'm a little lovesick, or maybe a lot. haha. i sometimes have the feeling of wanting to be by her side, accompanying her throughout everything. the thought of being able to be there for her just makes me want to smile.

talking about smiles, i was attracted to her because of her smile. whenever i look at her smile, it just makes me think that nothing is impossible and that every obstacle can be overcome no matter how difficult it can be.

OMG. have to curb my urge of thinking of her or else i won't be able to sleep tonight. hehe.

2009-11-05T11:08:00.005+08:00

From 仙剑奇侠转3 . . .

曲名：生生世世爱
歌手：吴雨霏

爱还没来天地间风云忽然变
有情有义的人都要回来
爱总会来生死注定的来世再爱
都等了太久哭尽无奈

她从树种来追随前世真爱
亲身体验过春去秋又来
情到至深时乌发也能白
剑成人后心动花灿烂地开

爱恨纠缠的生生世世
心底执着的信念为你存在
多遥远的路都阻挡不住
再次拥有没距离的温度
失去自由的生生世世
有爱不懂相拥错过了最爱
送一剑祝福再默默相助
恐怕没以后不自觉留退路

爱还没来天地间风云忽然变
有情有义的人都要回来
爱总会来生死注定的来世再爱
都等了太久哭尽无奈

一段记忆有三世那么长
到最后要用一碗水去遗忘
千年寂寞侯你重见阳光
还是转头又纵身跳火海化成凤凰

爱恨纠缠的生生世世
心底执着的信念为你存在
多遥远的路都阻挡不住
再次拥有没距离的温度
失去自由的生生世世
有爱不懂相拥错过了最爱
送一剑祝福再默默相助
恐怕没以后不自觉留退路

为情所困的生生世世
伤也被伤命中成双的伤害
等不到日出一个人孤独
让星光代替我伴你远途
黑白轮回的生生世世
彻底放开成全永远的依赖
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爱不离爱是把这感动留住

爱不离爱是把这感动留住

2009-11-02T02:53:00.002+08:00

haven been blogging for quite some time le. busy with my project recently.

Latest updates... ...

[1] got my car license on 30th October
[2] 1st "band" practice starts on next Thursday
[3] having badminton competition next week XD

anyway, looking for a job soon. need to earn for my car and my studio. lolx =P think it will take years before i can have a fraction of it.

2009-10-22T23:40:00.002+08:00

recently back to music and my dream of forming a band. LOL.
have been practicing "love story" which i posted in my earlier post on keyboard and di zi(chinese flute). den still wanted to try to form a band lo.

and so i shared my dream with my friends.
so i realized that one of my friends also had same interest bah. although not as enthu as me.

so currently my band is... ...

Vocalist 1: jet
Vocalist 2: zhi xuan
Vocalist 3: -
Bassist: -
Lead Guitarist: -
Drummer: wen bin
Pianist: celestine

yea. thats about it. as for me, i can fill the spaces for any of the above without names. but then, i still wan to incorporate the idea of mixing chinese instrument with western instruments. LOL.

anyway, the people placed in their positions are all tentative until i really get my band up and going.

really hope that day comes soon... ...

Love Story Sheet Music

2009-10-20T08:17:00.005+08:00

2009-10-19T04:11:00.002+08:00

a song recommended by felicia chin . . .

歌曲：清水
主唱：光良
作曲：陳台證
填詞：李峻一
編曲：陳台證
監製：陳台證

在每個悄悄細雨的深宵　棉被裏互送溫暖
為妳買我已看過的影碟　行遍這都市
能好好相愛非難事　從細節中兌現
情似細水　會流得遠　每朝早都共妳吻一遍

＊多清淡　都心醉　愛情是清水
吹不散　敲不碎　我們是一對
談情熱烈像煙花　難燒到八十歲　我寧願愛似清水
多清淡　多瑣碎　也甜在心裏
天空裏　深海裏　我們亦一對
情人是活命的水　能輸進血液裏　那純淨那可失去

寒冷要會替妳蓋起風褸　行過馬路要牽手
年老妳我亦退休之後　遊遍這地球

REPEAT＊

猜到妳心一句　透明像清水
吹不散　敲不碎　我們是一對
談情熱烈像煙花　難燒到八十歲　我寧願愛似清水
多清淡　多瑣碎　也甜在心裏
天空裏　深海裏　我們亦一對
如若某部分太累　回憶也當樂趣
妳尚在我的心裏　這甜蜜永不失去

2009-10-19T03:17:00.001+08:00

From the show 《仙剑奇侠传1》

相爱，不如相知。

2009-10-18T03:26:00.001+08:00

Been quite awhile since i last posted, i guess ~,~

and the story continues... ...

LOL. school is starting AGAIN on monday. and once again, im having difficulty trying to figure out what im really suppose to do this semester.

speaking of which, its my last semester in ngee ann poly. so, trying not to do any stunts to jeopardize my grades any further. T,T (already tried that in the previous semester)

yea. anyway, for some reason, i have to feeling of giving up on everything again. had this kinda feeling once when i was in sec school. just wanna quit school and work till my life end. just like how an oil lamp goes out when the oil has run dry.

but thanks to some of my "friends", im still hanging on bah. 真的要谢谢我的猪朋狗友.哈哈

end of this chapter about my school life. moving on to next chapter... ...

im gonna get my driving license soon!!! please congratulate me. haha. my traffic police test date is on 30th october. hope i pass during 1st try.
and i will upgrade my bike license if i have the money. =X

oh ya. i just remembered something that i wanna share with y'all. for your info, and for those who don't know, next year's chinese new year falls on the 14th of Feburary, the same day as valentine's day. what a double celebration. haha.

ok ar. i shall put a fullstop to this post before i have nothing to post again next time. LOL. see y'all soon. hope to be able to meet up with my gan jie jies, mei meis and kor kor soon. other friends are welcome too. haa. XD

2009-09-02T16:08:00.002+08:00

爱一个人

如果你不爱一个人，
请放手。
好让别人有机会爱她。
如果你爱的人放弃了你，
请放开自己，
好让自己有机会爱别人。
有的东西你再喜欢也不会属于你的，
有的东西你再留恋也注定要放弃的。
人生中有许多种。
但别让自己为一种伤害。
有些缘分是注定要失去的，
有些缘分是永远都不会有好结果的，
爱一个人不一定要拥有，
但拥有一个人就一定要好好的去爱她。
男人哭了是因为他真的爱了。
女人哭了是因为她真的放弃了。

如果真诚是一种伤害，
我选择谎言；
如果谎言是一种伤害，
我选择沉默；
如果沉默是一种伤害，
我选择离开。

如果失去是苦，
你怕不怕付出，
如果迷乱是苦，
你会不会选择结束，
如果追求是苦，
你会不会选择执迷不悟，
如果分离是苦，
你要向谁倾诉，
好多事情都是后来才看清楚，
好多事情当时一点也不觉得苦!!!

2009-09-02T04:45:00.002+08:00

不知不觉已经到了VPP(Vacation Project Program)的第三天。
每一天都是无聊的一天，不是用电脑看戏或听歌，就是在班里睡觉。
我有时候会回想自己是否选错了course。
因为我还真得满想去attachment的。

但是多想也没用。就如泼出去的水，一旦做了选者，就不能后悔。
*叹气* 我还真的不晓得该怎样过剩下来的日子。

不管那么多了。过一天算一天好了。

anyway, not many interesting events happening these days.
its just going to school and going home for me.
nearest upcoming event should be badminton club camp.
=X

2009-08-20T20:49:00.003+08:00

Something nice to read...

1.Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye.

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

11. Guys are very open about themselves.

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

14. Guys love you more than you love them.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.

16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key.

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.'

23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them.

33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. haha it's true..

34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually

35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs.

36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts.

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life.

2009-08-20T20:31:00.001+08:00

I officially declare that I'm sick as of today!!!

Sad-ded ..

I'm having exams next Monday and Thursday and i have not started revisions yet.
Well, i hope that i don't fail any modules this semester.
*pray hard and study hard*
The worst thing is that i only have 2 week of semester break due to Vacation Project Period, which means i have to go back to school during vacation for project Monday to Friday, 8am to 5pm.

Sad right? But no choice because of Final Year Project.

In addition, i just received the notice to go for medical check-up for NS.

*sigh* just feel that my life is getting worse each day.

2009-08-20T20:26:00.000+08:00

From the movie "Love Connected (保持爱你)"

愿时光保持不变，让我爱你依然。

2009-08-17T13:26:00.001+08:00

YAY!! As of today, im having study week.

yesterday went down to visit my aunt and family. Had brunch at bedok and dinner at Just Acia, downtown east.

nothing much happening lately. still watching shows as usual. still having my driving lessons. still studying.
although abit hate the studying part. D:

2009-08-16T01:46:00.000+08:00

yay.. no more school for me for 2 weeks.. =D
next week is study week and the week after is exam week..

lately, i have been very into my driving practical lessons..want to get my license as soon as possible.. =P

2009-08-07T23:20:00.000+08:00

Had my 1st driving lesson today.. =D

it was like.. OMG.. cant be described..

2009-08-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

yay!! no more IS module starting the coming week.. =DD.. 2 more weeks till study week and exam week..

starting my 1st practical driving lesson next Friday.. =DD..

had last badminton club training yesterday.. D; and as usual, ate a alumni after training..

went to bright hill crematorium today morning to pay respects to my grand-uncle... he passed away in April 2009... =(... well... wasn't really that close to him when he was still around... so didn't really feel that sad.. after that was lunch at hawker...

went to tampines with my dearest cousin to sell her phone and to walk walk..

reached home at around 5 plus and played badminton again downstairs with my friends.. =DD..

held 2nd riding lesson for my cousin at a carpark near her block..as usual, i am the trainer and she was the trainee... =P..had some slight improvement though... Slightly only...

home sweet home <3 ..

2009-07-29T00:03:00.003+08:00

Its been quite some time since i blogged.
Recently quite busy with academic stuff.

~Latest Update On Academic~

PD1(Project Design 1)

Just had internal panel review today by our project supervisors. There an external panel review by external lecturers from ngee ann the coming week.

MR(Mobile Robotics)

Having an open-book exam tomorrow. Cost 20% of the whole module. *hope i pass =X*

WISP(World Issues: a Singapore's Perspective)

Assignment 3 will be given to us tomorrow. Due date is on next Wednesday 3pm.

FCS(Fundamental of Control System)

Still hanging in there for this module. Trying hard to understand the concepts and formulas.

SE(Software Engineering)

I think this module very hard to pass. Behind time on my mini project. Have the feeling of failing this module. But still trying my best to complete assignments although already late in submitting it.

Hope i can stop procrastinating or else i will have to fail modules for this semester for the first time in my 3 years of poly studies. =XX

Today's event was quite interesting. My female cousin have decided to learn bike because a lot of people have been saying that she wouldn't make it. And she had her first lesson from me today!!! Illegally of course.

*sshhhhh*

Haha. I must comment that she was not that bad. Just had some coordination problems although almost had an accident. But she did her best as a beginner. Must work hard and prove that you can do it ok? LOL.

Time flies and its already the end of the month of July.

Starting next week is August and I'm also starting my practical driving lessons next week. School exams are also commencing in August.

Looks like a busy month ahead. D:

2009-07-28T23:56:00.000+08:00

~heartfelt words~

statement 1: 爱是悲哀的。(love is sad)

statement 2: 爱是一切奇迹的开始。(love is the start of every miracle)

Which one do you agree?

2009-07-15T04:28:00.002+08:00

Date: 15 July 2009

Day: Wednesday

Time: 4.29am

As I'm blogging now, its already morning.

Having 2 presentations today. Sad to say, both presentations are for my IS modules.

It is already halfway of the 3rd week since term started.

The semester is going to end soon before i know it.

Don't feel like updating photos now because I just don't feel like doing so. =X

Its a short post for a hectic week. Gomen gomen.

Got to go prepare to go school already, in case i fall asleep at home. =P

2009-07-05T23:41:00.002+08:00

Its been a week since school started for the 2nd term.
Failed FCS (Fundamentals of Control System). Got 47 of 100. =(
Wondering to myself whether its the paper too hard, or i didn't study enough.
Well, i guess its more of the latter one.
Anyway, more assignments are coming in. More reading up to do.
Wish i had more than 24 hours per day.
But i don't think my body can cope even if i had. =X

So much for school.

My cousin came back from Wu Han, China yesterday.
Was a wee bit happy.
Its been a few months since i saw her.

I wish i was working instead of studying right now.
More financially stable.
Able to pursue more things that i want to do instead of studying.

*Sigh* signing off with regrets...........

2009-06-29T08:19:00.000+08:00

T,T... school start le... sadded...

im already in school now as im blogging...

2009-06-27T23:24:00.001+08:00

was late for training today... didn't wan to go de... but have to give xiiao jet "mian zi"..=P

had katong laksa for lunch and did some camp stuff after lunch...

had dinner at KFC and went home...

reached home at around 9.40 pm...

day ended... =(

countdown...
school starting in 1 days time... =(

2009-06-26T23:09:00.002+08:00

~ Guinness World Record ~

Aviva's World Longest Rally

2009-06-26T21:59:00.002+08:00

心の言

let the wind carry away the sounds of sadness and sorrow that lies within . . .

2009-06-26T21:50:00.002+08:00

omg.. O.O... its friday already... time flies...

saturday is coming in 2 hours and 9mins... LOL...

had my FTT on wed...and passed ;D ...

slept the whole of yesterday... and had chess training today...

not forgetting that there is badminton training tml... D; ...

Tired ~~~

P.S.

FTT = final theory test for driving...

countdown...

school starting in 2 days time... =(

2009-06-23T01:18:00.003+08:00

today went to find xiiao jet at around noon and saw him sewing smth very suspiciously..hmm...

after that jio him go eat at KFC... =[

look at that suspicious face... XD
lunch at KFC..both of us ate 2 pcs chicken meal. =[

haiz... after lunch abit no "hweeling" to blow di zi... dunno why also.. =X

wanted to write a song for xiiao huii de... =P

nvm... next time got "hweeling" den write bah..

visited pastamania @ suntec AGAIN to visit jet and have dinner with xiiao huii....

Main course: marinara / mussels and clams

Drinks: latte freeze less syrup for both of us

Desserts: apple crumble pizza / mango trifle / tiramisu

apple crumble left 3 out of 8 slices.. =P
xiiao huii taking a photo of her latte freeze
一脸满足的样子 again... LOL... XD
Photo of xiiao jet in uniform...XD
group photos... =D

2009-06-22T00:33:00.003+08:00

today is one of the days where i pump petrol and ride more than 100km in the same day...
went to my aunt's house in pasir ris at abt 2pm..
den on the way got some toopid biker indirectly challenge me to race with him...
and still lose to me... lol...=)...abit waste of my petrol though...
after that went to find xiiao jet at ard 9 plus for free food... XD
but the food like okok only... haha...
the latte freeze abit the sweet and the soup taste like water litat... =(
haiz... another tired day have passed...no time to emo also... =(

free food... =DDD ...latte freeze and mushroom soup..

close up of latte freeze made by xiiao jet... so sweet of him to make a so sweet de latte freeze for me... LOL.... =) its quite nice actually...

2009-06-21T13:11:00.003+08:00

phew... ytd very tired... after training alrdy tired liao... den go out to buy stuff den drench in the rain... all the more tired... den still fetch xiiao jet home... very tired liao.... =X

ytd also gave xiiao hui another present...

Stars and crystals in a bottle...XD

Close up.. =D

eating at alumni...xiiao jet using his "gun" to point at xiao hui... =P

2009-06-19T16:15:00.008+08:00

went to eat sakae @ funan ytd for dinner with xiiao jet and xiiao hui

=DDD

treated xiiao hui as her bday present.

xiiao hui is camera shy

xiiao jet and xiiao hui

~sazae yaki~

~fried toufuu~

~tako yaki~

~unagi~

~gyozaa~

"oh.. the wet tissue smells good.." =P

xiiao hui taking her toufuu~

xiiao hui and xiiao jet fighting for toufuu~

=DD

The following are pics of xiiao hui 一脸的满足感 after eating her chawanmushi...

"i want some more"

OMG!!!

曲名：七月七日晴歌手：许慧欣

2009-06-19T15:32:00.016+08:00

说了再见是否就能不再想念

说了抱歉是否就能理解一切

眼泪代替你亲吻我的脸

我的世界忽然漫天白雪

拇指之间还残留你的昨天

一片一片怎么听见完全

七月七日晴

忽然下起了大雪

不敢睁开眼希望是我的幻觉

我站在地球边眼睁睁看着雪

覆盖你来的那条街

七月七日晴

黑夜忽然变白天

我失去知觉看着相爱的极限

我望着地平线天空无际无边

听不见你道别

拇指之间还残留你的昨天

一片一片怎么听见完全

七月七日晴

忽然下起了大雪

不敢睁开眼希望是我的幻觉

我站在地球边眼睁睁看着雪

覆盖你来的那条街

七月七日晴

黑夜忽然变白天

我失去知觉看着相爱的极限

我望着地平线天空无际无边

听不见你道别

七月七日晴

忽然下起了大雪

不敢睁开眼希望是我的幻觉

我站在地球边眼睁睁看着雪

覆盖你来的那条街

七月七日晴~

我失去知觉~

天空无际无边~

.:: Memories of the past ::.

Love Story Sheet Music

曲名：七月七日晴 歌手：许慧欣

曲名：七月七日晴歌手：许慧欣